Work..

[emony]

I think I need to develop a crack habit, to make my life bearable - give me something to do, something to work for (money to buy more crack), a bit of peace and that nice, floaty "nothing matters but getting more crack" feeling.

Or maybe something less harsh than crack. That seems a bit of a big step. Maybe some kind of prescription drugs. Painkillers? Or anti-depressants maybe. I don't know. I wish I could take something though, and just not be here anymore. Not in a suicidal way. I still want to be here. I just don't want to know that I'm here.

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[fourleftxaviers.livejournal.com]

Yeah, everyone definitely has those days. I don't know if hormones are my problem. Part of it, probably. Usually when I reach the end of my rope it's because of feeling more stress than usual, frequently work-related, frequently coupled with a compromised ability to deal with my stress.

But mostly chocolate, massage, exercise and meditation keep me okay and in line. Now and again, though, I have days where I just don't know what to do with myself.

Clearly I need more massages. *g* I'm glad the chocolate did the trick for you. Powerful stuff, chocolate.