Work..

[emony]

I think I need to develop a crack habit, to make my life bearable - give me something to do, something to work for (money to buy more crack), a bit of peace and that nice, floaty "nothing matters but getting more crack" feeling.

Or maybe something less harsh than crack. That seems a bit of a big step. Maybe some kind of prescription drugs. Painkillers? Or anti-depressants maybe. I don't know. I wish I could take something though, and just not be here anymore. Not in a suicidal way. I still want to be here. I just don't want to know that I'm here.

Comments

[emony.livejournal.com]

I think sometimes we all feel like that. You just have one of those days where your hormones or whatever (not necessary the Womanly Ones, just the regular ones!) are a bit out of balance, work gets on your back or school or whatever, and it seems an easier option to just not cope with it all. But it's a short-term thing, mostly. Or if it's not it should be, because we can cope and we can get on with our lives, and if things make us feel crappy we have to change them or live with them. Also, the chocolate everyone recommended really did help. Heh. But thanks :)

[fourleftxaviers.livejournal.com]

Yeah, everyone definitely has those days. I don't know if hormones are my problem. Part of it, probably. Usually when I reach the end of my rope it's because of feeling more stress than usual, frequently work-related, frequently coupled with a compromised ability to deal with my stress.

But mostly chocolate, massage, exercise and meditation keep me okay and in line. Now and again, though, I have days where I just don't know what to do with myself.

Clearly I need more massages. *g* I'm glad the chocolate did the trick for you. Powerful stuff, chocolate.