Work..

[emony]

I think I need to develop a crack habit, to make my life bearable - give me something to do, something to work for (money to buy more crack), a bit of peace and that nice, floaty "nothing matters but getting more crack" feeling.

Or maybe something less harsh than crack. That seems a bit of a big step. Maybe some kind of prescription drugs. Painkillers? Or anti-depressants maybe. I don't know. I wish I could take something though, and just not be here anymore. Not in a suicidal way. I still want to be here. I just don't want to know that I'm here.

Comments

[blackgarden.livejournal.com]

I've been taking Vicodin for the exact "crack" reason you gave. It gives you a warm, floaty feeling and everything feels sweet. :D The main side effect I've experienced is nausea, but that's gone away.

Oh, and *hugs* I'm sorry you're feeling so blah.

[emony.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thanks. It was a very temporary, work-related, Monday-morning type of blah that passed with relative ease, so I can't complain. As appealing as taking the edge of might have seemed at 9am yesterday morning, it wouldn't actually have solved the problem at all, or left me in any condition to do anything else that might solve the problem. Raising my, what was it? Seratonin levels, with a bit of chocolate, and then trawling for new jobs is probably the better long-term solution. But thanks. *hugs*