You are a beautiful human person and totally unique

[emony]

I really worry about some of you. I know you don't see the whole reality via LJ, because it's just what you want to show that you're showing, and sometimes what you want to show is the bad things. We all need an outlet, and sometimes we pour out our depression and frustration and misery here because there's no one else to listen but we still have to say it somewhere or we'll just go mad. But looking around my flist on a daily basis, I see alcohol abuse and eating disorders and some serious long-term depression, and I want to shake you and tell you for god's sake, sort yourself out. If you're drinking that much, if you're starving yourself so you can be "happier", if you're that miserable with the way your life is, don't hide behind your escape, don't just accept that this is how it's always going to be and that you can't do anything about it. You can. There are *always* options. Maybe the options suck, maybe they'd mean some hard work on your part, maybe they'd be utterly terrifying and maybe the idea of failure fills you with cold, heavy dread. But think of it this way - will it make you feel any worse than you're feeling now? If the answer's no, then you need to stop hiding and start acting. If the problem is depression, go to you doctor and make an appointment to talk to a councellor, and don't wuss out of going. They're there to help you, and if you want to stop feeling the way you're feeling, if you really want your life to improve, you have to stick to going. If the problem is your parents putting unreasonable pressure and trouble into your life, tell them what they're doing to you. Be honest - tell them that you're sorry, you're not perfect, maybe you're not what they wanted, but you're what they got, and you're pretty fucking great, and if they can't love you for being who you are, and if they can't support you when you need help, then maybe you're better off without them.They're your parents and you love them, but if they're what's dragging you down and making your life shit, you need to be away from them, and you need them to know what they're doing to you, and to know that you're not going to let them do it anymore.

Whatever the problem is, the only person who can make things better is you, and the only way you can do that is to take some positive action about it. You're a wonderful person with a lot of good qualities, and you deserve to be happy. I know it. I wish you knew it too.